But with all this thinking, it made me realize what I all have, whose is all in my life, & who I all depend on. Especially since I'm a Senior now, and will be going off to college in a year. I know, that probably sounds cheesy or something, but it's true.
Like Family, for one. I spend more time with my family during the summer, since I don't have any school work to do & that. But, during school I never really spend time with them, except on weekends. But now, when your sitting at home all day, you usually hang out with your family or do something with them. Don't get me wrong, I do love spending time with my family, but sometimes, to a point. I'm the type of person, that can just stay in my room all day. I like being by myself. And when your around a room full of family members, it can get overwhelming.
But now, I'm a Senior, and next summer I'll be going to college, so I won't be spending that much time with my family as I have before. Some people are like, "I can't wait to leave my parents and go to college, and be on my own." But now I'm realizing that pretty soon, I will be on my own, and to be honest, I'm scared. I don't wanna be by myself, away from my family. Yeah, sometimes we have disagreements... but I haven't realized how much I depend on my parents & family!
And now, there's Friends. Oh boy! Up until you graduate in high school, all through the years, you've been going to school with the same people for years. You see them everyday, and go to school with them everyday. But, when you go off to college, you won't be seeing much of those same people everyday. (Unless you go to the same college someone in your class is going too.) But, you'll be surrounded by lots of people you don't know. You won't see the same people, or the teachers. That too, is intimidating!
But, again, I haven't realized how much I depended on my friends until now! Whenever I have a problem or just need to talk to someone, I can text my closest friends, or better yet, go to their house and talk. Whenever I'm bored, I can make plans with my friends to do something. That's all outside of school. Inside of school, you can see each of your friends everyday, eat lunch with them, and act weird during class with them. To be honest, I'm really gonna miss that!
Along with Family & Friends, there is also your teachers, and just all those other people you may see every week or every day. Even though sometimes I don't like my teachers (how much homework they give out), I'm gonna miss them too! My teachers know me, I've had them for a yr or more, so I know them too. Sometimes I could even go to one of my teachers just to talk to them if I needed to. I won't be seeing them everyday, just like my family & friends. It is going to be quite a change!!
My point out of all this, is that you don't know how much you depend on people. You don't realize that until you simply can't depend on them anymore, because you have to depend on yourself now. But when your own your own, you'll get used to depending on yourself. But, even though you can't depend on Family & Friends anymore, they will still be there!
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