So much has happened already. It's crazy how life goes by so fast. I just want to take a step back, and just pause life & the world, so I can catch up.
It;s already November. I started my senior yr in the beginning of September... where has the time gone already?! It's already been 3 months into my senior yr. Everyone wasn't kidding when they said that your senior year goes by fast. Yes, I hate school, and I always say I can't wait to get outta high school; but honestly, I just don't wanna leave just yet. I have until June, so I got some time yet. But it's scary to think after high school, you go into the "real world", or whatever that is. Everything changes after high school; the people you knew and grew up with since preschool & kindergarten. Even the world changes. You go off to college, room with people you don't know at first, but then get to know pretty well. Having more responsibilities, and paying for everything.. things you didn't have to before. Just a scary thought!
I need to apply to colleges yet! I'm just so behind on everything! There is sooo much to do, it's crazy! I don't know if I wanna switch my major or not... and if I don't get into the college that I want to go to... I honestly have no idea what I'd do. I have 3 colleges in mind... but the other 2 are very expensive... yet every college is.
It just seems like everything is coming waaayyy to fast! I need time to catch up and take a breather. Before I know it, it'll be June, and I'll be graduating high school & going off into the real world. Part of me, doesn't want that to happen. I don't wanna graduate and be outta high school. I know, all 18 yrs of school was preparing us for college and the real world, but I just don't wanna go into the real world yet. I don't wanna leave the 4 walls of my high school. Once you leave, you leave all your teachers, friends, memories, and all different experiences that happens. Homecoming, homecoming activites & the bonfire, football games, Prom, Post-Prom, all the clubs. Once I go to college, I don't get to experience all that anymore. They don't have homecomings and proms in college. They have clubs... but it's not the same. In high school, you don't have to worry about much... but in the "real world", so much to worry about.
With all of this.. my point is, that I just want everything to stop, or at least slow down. I just need time to catch up and process everything. It's still a lot to take in, and I just need time to think about it all, and get everything in order, if you will. Life will definitely be different after graduation; everything will change. I don't want that moment to come just yet... I want the good ole days. The days, where your only worry was who would sit by you in class, and what color crayon to use. I miss those days. I miss trading candy on the bus in elementary school with my best friend. I miss sledding during school with all my friends. I miss Lunch and a Good Book, and all the fun activities we did in elementary school. I miss all that. I just wanna go back, and re-live and enjoy all those moments... because once that diploma gets handed to me, *everything changes*
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